You know sometimes I never want to get married again. I look at every thing my marriage turned into and see no way any man could ever treat it the way they themselves wrote the vows. Then I wonder if I just have some mistaken version of what love is suppose to be. That if I hadn't been in love I wouldn't have been hurt so bad.. I spent all of yesterday filling out papers from the DA for child support because my ex has decided to start sending the state child support instead of me. This is after he told me he had switched my payments to a different account and hadn't. To me it feels like he is still trying to control me in what ever why he can. As if he can by telling me he'll give me a dollar for his hamburger (son) on Wednesday but instead is a peso and I have to run all over town for a place to exchange it and in the end I don't get near enough.